I can't say 'I Miss You' when I miss you, I can't say 'I Love You' even now I'm still so into you, I can't say 'I Need You' in the middle of the night when I really need you to accompany me to kill my lonely night. Everything is gone, and you said that this is what I choose. Everything seems came to me and gone like that just in that particular moment - my decision in 1 second, my feeling towards you for so long, everything, just everything, just gone due to my stupidity.. Even me laugh at myself, Y.SiewWen, you are such a shame!
I don't know whether is it still a good thing for him as I thought before and what i used to be or not? I just know that I have to continue what I had decided before all this happens.. and I did it, the feeling is so hard. Every time he asks me to go with him, I feel so hard but not guilty. The answer that I given is just so not me, but still I have to, no choice..
No one will know that why I do that, included you! Yea, you know me very well, but in this case, you're not, seriously.
This post is just all about bullshit. Because nothing will be different after all.
Y.SiewWen, just gain back the very true smile on your face, I miss your laughter when you are with him last time, prove to yourself, you can laugh in that way too even you're now without him, like without my soul~ Without Everything. even though you know that you can't :( Maybe he is right, have to get drunk now!
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