Halloween

Sadly to say, this is the first Halloween of mine throughout my whole life!...as you know my hometown will never have this kind of event. LOL

BUT my Halloween night seems not so awesome as I expect :(

...because the actual plan was going to a event which is organized by one of the society in my college, but the event is damn not awesome.. and due to the extremely-broken-financial-problem, we can't go for all AWESOME stuff that might cost us a lot :(

so.... we decided to meet up my house-mates in OneU for a movie - Life as We Know It :) Luckily the movie doesn't disappoints me^^

Not to forgotten...

~ Eyes Make-up _

~ Nails color!!! _

Anyway, I'm still enjoy with everyone that I met that night...

Ginger Girl

Sorry, I have no time to update my blog :(

Picture Story..is it ok??

DEAL!!! xD LOL =.=''

As the plan yesterday, we are decided to take Ginger dear's puppy to go Desa Park City :)

Unfortunately, today was a rainy day, so we went to the college first. I was doing my revision and him...seriously, I don't know xD ...maybe game? maybe coursework?....

~ They look alike right? xD _

~ Just feel like this pose of him so YENG! _

~ with my works, my Herbalife and my man :) _

Around 6pm.. Yea! Is the time to have some food now! McD~ That was so funny that we both have to eat in the car and Ginger keep on jumping to us for food. What a tiring lunch...

After that, we went to pick up Hari and headed to Desa Park City! Before going to have a walk in the park, we first went in to a pet shop to get some food and toy for her^^ I was so happy to see that Ginger is so active as she pee and shit a lot!!! xD

Guess what is my dinner tonight?

KFC!!!

walau eh~ Today is my Fast Food Day :(

Show Your LOVE to HIM

I skipped my QM class again today! Damn~ ...really hard to explain why it's so hard to wake up for the class, just having problem when it comes to QM.. why why why?!!! =.=''

Anyway, I have done with my 2 QM tutorials just now at Papparich @ The Curve with dear :) pray hard that I could wake up tomorrow for the class and can summit both on time! xD

Remember about the post about his absent to dad's birthday celebration? *Hundred Of CLAPss to ME Please~ Eventually I plucked up my courage to talk to him about my thoughts of the incident which is struggling in my mind quite some times already.

I already told you all about whatever I wanted to say, and I hope that you got me in 100%

Honestly speaking, even me myself can feel that your dad really loves you a lot!..like what I said, is not related at all about are you going to celebrate with him again or not, is that he hopes that everyone can be there with him on the birthday itself as he loves and cares about you as his son. The reason why I asked you how his emotion after the day is that I want you to know that your dad is really cares about you as your attendance is very important for him. Do not feel bad that you're spoilt or unfilial, blaming yourself will never be the way you show your love towards him as a return, only the right action could always be the best way for you to prove everything. ME : 如果那天是你生日，只有我帮你唱生日歌/我和你所有朋友唱生日歌给你，那一个你会比较开心呢？(I think this is the MAIN POINT of Mine) Dear, be tough and strong always. I know you have your own thinking as your age now, and I trust that you are mature enough to differentiate what you should do or do not do..always remember this, your dad loves you as I love you :)

beloved,

always by your side.

SiewWen

Accounting Assignment

This is actually the last part of our works which is collected from the hundreds NG moments of us :) At last, we manage to submit our assignment on time. ENJOY~

Glad to have them as my course-mates^^

His DAD

~ My lunch from Azzy^^ _

Back to the topic, 'His DAD'...

Actually today his family have a birthday celebration for his dad, he planned to go but I don't know why at last he did not turn up. His sister sent me a few messages via Facebook, but it was too late when I saw the message because I only online at around 6-7pm. I'm speechless and I have no right to do or say anything as in fact I thought that he wont missed out the night..and I'm so scared and worried that his sister will misunderstand me is the one who not informing him to attend the dinner. At the end, he told me that he will celebrate with his dad alone after this. BUT deep in my heart, I actually wanted to tell him what your dad wants is totally different as yours, I think... Anyway, I just want you to know that, he wont be as happy as you are there for him although he is still having the others. I hope that I got chance to tell you this, but I might to become a coward when I wish to voice out in front of you... :(

(Fight for this love_Cheryl Cole)

I wish to upload the video but it takes me a lot of time :( This song actually started our love life as I know it from him :) I'm still remember that I used to listen to this song everyday and set it as my ringtone. Right now, it's already quite sometimes from the day the song published itself. That's why I'm not having that habit as listening to the song everyday anymore. But still, I will listen to it frequently like few weeks after. Don't know why, each of the times I listen to this song, the thought and feeling in my heart was totally different... Maybe I'm advancing the thought in my mind towards love day by day. The only thing that is still remain is the eternity of our LOVE.

Lamiie DAY

We both woke up late today :( ..and after that he went to meet Hari...

Guess what am I doing in the whole rainy day?! Sadly to say, I do nothing :( I'm freaking lazy to MOVE! BUT I did some good stuff that Rajin people will do, vacuum and clean up my room :)>*clapss!!! ..and I'm gonna to show you the most awesome picture ever after that...

~ Guess what is that?! Answer will be shown later :) _

Unfortunately, after the cleaning session, I forgot to close the windows in my room. At the end, my room was flooded with rain drops! :( The floor is full of water, the desk and my bed which is placed closer to the windows were all wet like hell. OMG! so sad~

Then, I went down to COVA Square and planned to give him a surprise..and luckily it was successful! After having our dinner, we headed to Rasta with Hari and Edward.

~ Stupid faces of BOTH ♥ _

~ Edward and Hari _

( Stupid faces also xD )

~ DEAR!!!!! hahaha... _

~ LOL! Emo face _

Answer : Ignore the green color thingy, the thingy in the middle is actually a solid of DUST! I found it inside my vacuum machine LOL. Please forgive me, I should't ignore YOU for so long... xD

I think I can HIT the target and promise that I mentioned last time

_2 more posts for this month :)

HER Birthday Surprise

so yea, I'm gonna to talk about a birthday surprise to a girl name LooSin... LOL.. chill lar~ so serious for what?

Actually I'm not that close to her and know not much about her, because she is one of my dear's previous college buddies. As I told you guys, all of them are awesome (..like they can eat a lot) and yea, they are nice friends :) I have to say that dear is so lucky to have all of them as friends.

Back to the topic, dear text me and invited me to go for the surprise thingy last night. So, he gave me a text again in the morning today and inform me that he will be reached my hostel at around 2pm. In fact, I actually wanted to wake up at around 9am, but I woke up damn LATE due to my laziness :(

He is wearing RED checkers which I have lack of that color. At last, I decided to wear the dress he gave to me last time which got red flowery printed at the bottom part. Hmm.. quite suit xD muahahahaaha... perasan!

Then, we headed to Sunway UC and waiting for the others in the car park. After all (lunch, get a birthday cake..), we went to her house together. It was quite dangerous in the car throughout the whole journey because we got a poor guide xD Anyway, it wasn't me to complain all that! Make sure you find the right person to MARAH k? ;)

~ STUCK in the car while waiting for the friends and here we go.. Camwhore! _

Guess what?! She cried for the surprise! That's mean the surprise was success! Credits to her dad, You are cool and awesome! BUT she cried so pitifully, LOL! I really hope to give her a big hug to calm her down. Don't know why, I just feel weird, seems like I'm the additional one :( Anyway, I'm still enjoy the time with all of them^^

~ It was so touching that I saw her cried because of the friends' surprise :) _

( sorry for the low quality of some pictures )

~ Birthday GIRL with her Papa and Mama! Owh~ so sweet _

At night, we have dinner together! Sadly to say, I'm just realized that they seem have been stalked me for quite a long time.. They know I got ULCERS! hmm... Amazing!! All day eating Mee, like mee soup, mi hun soup, spaghetti, yin-yong are freaking me out!..because it's quite suffer for me to chew :(

~ Group Picture! :) _

Okay~ That's all for the day.

Stay tuned.

Ulcers!!!

I'm really not in mood now :(
The ulcers in my mouth is getting bigger and bigger day by day and Uncle Flu met me in the morning which there is such a long time that I have never been meet him up. Dear, no kiss kiss in this month k? Baby got ulcers!! xD muahahahahahaha~

Finally, our assignment is going to be completed, hope that they are satisfied with what I have worked on..and I have to say that I'm really lucky to have them as my 'longterm' group-mates and friends :)

...and at last, I went for my QM class today. Unfortunately, the lecturer is still the same with her un-awesomeness. LOL! The tutorials and what she taught us today, Laspeyre and Paasche Index realy freaks me out! OMG =.=''

Actually I'm just woke up at around 6pm and dinner with my house-mates. Tomyam Mihun which is not spicy.. hahaha xD Thanks a lot to whatever GOD have give to me, whatever it is, no matter how hard it is, I will be tough and well prepared for the next challenge in my life :)

sorry for that I'm just crapping around~

20102010

damn! I'm so sorry that I just leave my blog for so long :( Forgive me please...

I'm having a hectic and busy life now with all the assignments, tests and revising works.. ARGH!! Hate these to the TOP!

...and again, I didn't go for the QM class, I was wondering why am I so damn HARD to wake up for the class. maybe the lecturer is not awesome enough xD What a lousy excuse?! Anyway, I went to college in the afternoon to meet up with my 'long-term' assignment's group-mates (Abby, Elain and ShirLie) for the Accounting assignment which we have to submit it on next Monday. We are asked to present our work in a video. To be frank to you, I feel so bad due to the hundreds or thousands time of NG-ing :( It doesn't matter, because my NG-ness will never hit the highest record of ShirLie did xD no insult.. muahahahahaha~

Luckily the video was fully completed by today!..and we can start to work on the editing part for the video. As what I can say, I don't think we can get a high mark like previous assignment do, because our creativity of this video is extremely LAME to the top :( Anyway, I sincerely hope that the video we made still can an A from Ms.Elaine. PRAY HARDER!!! >< If we have more time, I think we can do better than this.

At night, I went out with my dear for lunch/dinner as usual^^ Guess what? He cut his hair and the new hair style was =.='' He was so upset. Pity sial~ I guess he gonna to put on his cap again for the coming months...

That's all for today :) I will try my best to update at least 5 more posts in this month, promised.

Lots of LOVE to my FRIENDSs

Dear and me were overnight at Dinesh's house for study last night but we actually didn't get to sleep. I was damn freaking tired! In fact, I think I already used to sleep late and I don't feel sleepy at all even though I'm really tired and exhausted. We came out from the house at 5am and headed to Mamak store for early 'breakfast' and lastly went back to my hostel for a nap since that time was still early when we reached our college. Obviously we are not going to study anymore, so we went in to the hostel for SLEEP instead of go in to the college and continue our study as the actual plan xD

Here, I seriously have to slightly describe about how Dinesh's housing area like...

It is actually DAMN far from our college and he is living in KEM SG BESI as his father is an ARMY :) That's easily mean that the occupation of all the population there is ARMY!!! wow! damn Awesome right?! To reach the main entrance of the KEM, we actually have to drive more or less 15 minutes from the town itself! It is really 'kawasan pendalaman'. LOL To be frank to you, I was totally lost although I'm only sit inside the car. If you left me alone there, definitely I will never know how to find the way out from the area :( Once we had reached the main entrance, Dinesh has to tell the guard : " Anak SOMETHING ". Don't know why, I just found this as very AWESOME! muahahahaha~ The main office, the small apartments and Semi-Ds of Armies are all in this KEM! BUT the most AWESOME thing is, they don't even need to lock the door and windows during day and night.

Dear lost my only key of my hostel but luckily Mal was not yet sleep during the late night! Hmm.. wondering what was she doing that time? xD Due to our extreme tiredness, we all straightaway went into the room and sleep like..zzz.....

Guess what? I was actually woke up at 1130am and my class will be started at 12 noon! =.='' ...and something is seriously shocked me and stressed me up happen when Elvy called me during my lunch time. not going to tell anyone here, just keep it as secret between us :) Anyway, I LOVE You more than you do! haha xD

After class, I straight went back to my hostel.

..argued with my eldest sister which I never thought this will happen between me and her cause she is the one I respect the most after my parents. Don't wanna to bother anything related to that anymore. I'm tired! Whatever they want to say, just let it be. I have no heart and I trust that, if they know me well, they will understand... Treat everything NEUTRAL now. CRY hard and really loud in front of my house-mates and dear! :( ...and I'm here to tell Vincent Ong (sister's bf), who are you now to confront me, you are definitely no right to do so! Who you think you are? Don't rude to me, judge yourself first before you judge others. Poor you~

During night time, I went out with dear for Snowflake because I need something cold and sweet to calm down myself. Luckily, it really works on me! After that, we went out with Elvy, YanZhang (her bf), Elain and VonChoong for tomyam!! :) Have a AWESOME night with all of them. I'm really hope that I can spend more time with them always^^ LOTS OF LOVE TO ALL OF YOU! especially my dear.. hiak hiak hiak.....

~ Special of the week _

~ 3 guys are smoking at the roadside before the Tomyam is ready. LOL _

101010

As you guys know that, I'm kinda not in mood recently :( Remember what I had posted in Facebook on 101010?

" It's 101010 today.. Hope something good will happen to me today Onwards.. Is it possible? :( "

Shockingly, the dream comes true! I did not give any text to him on that day, until the night, he sent me a message and asking for a meet. I refused him even though I knew that he was already waiting for me at the guard house. After that, I told him to come up if he willing to yet I just not feeling like wanna go out at that particular time. Since I'm doing the nails for Aida and Lynn just find out how to do a simply nail art recently :) , so I didn't give much bother about whether he might coming up or not? In fact, I hope that I can see him too...

~ This is what I tried to do on my nails :) _

The smile on my face at that moment reminded me that I couldn't smile 'properly' the whole day already! I'm touching but still the sadness of mine was still with me. He came to my hostel with Dinesh as I know that they were having group study today. Guess what? I'm so mean to him! I don't talk to him that much, even a lil bit eye contact. After that, he straight went in to my room to continue his studies. Owh~ I feel so bad actually.. Dinesh really put a lot of effort on me just to ask me to talk to him xD Apologize to Dinesh here that I actually raised my voice towards him. At the end, I went in to the room, but we still didn't have any conversation.

Then, he went to slept in the living room as it was already late! Still I didn't talk to him that much and I straight went to make-up and dress up myself as what I planned for the day before this, although the time is already 2am+ The purpose of doing that is actually I wanna to take pictures for my sister (Herbalife use) xD

~ Trust this or not, is always on YOU^^ _

( I never expect that I got that SHAPE before LMAO )

After all, I asked him to go to my bed and I went to remove all the make-up. muahahaha~ I know I'm a little bit crazy for doing all that in the last night! Instead of describing me as the word Crazy, I think Awesome would be the best to describe me, should I? :) Since 3 persons of my house-mates are going to Nike Run at around 4am, so the guys are going to over night here cause there are still a lot of empty beds xD

Around 3am, I went in to the room and lie beside him. Although I'm still upset because of the problems, but to be frank to you, the way he hug me after that, I have to admit that I miss him so much..and the way he said 'I miss you too' was the most catchiest one throughout all the time that he did it always. Insecureness of mine gone straightaway. Maybe this is what I need the most - the caring from him. :)

Guess what? I actually woke up at 5pm today!..and I realized that I had received so many messages in the morning of 10am+ from Elain, ZiQ and YongCiek when I'm still blur. Sorry guys, sorry for the late reply.

Elain, Thanks for your caring always. I do appreciate our friendship as deep as you do, I think :)

Ziq, don't apologize! But make sure I can meet with you next time. Miss you :)

YCiek, honestly speaking, I'm so happy to get your text. I do appreciate it as much as I can :)

Stay tuned to my blog even though I'm not update my blog frequently but I promise I will try my best^^

I'm gonna go out with him for study at Dinesh house tonight.

All the best to us, Good Luck to YOU :)

Everything will be fine after 101010...

LOVE is Blind

Love is Blind, but I'm NOT! I'm still watching on it, work on it, make miracles on it!

Honestly speaking, I'm lost! Am I thinking too much? BUT there are no way for me to not thinking about it. I love you and I do care about you, but all these seem like are too much to you. I'm scared and worried ALWAYS that I will annoyed and stressed you up :(

Someone please tell me, what should I do? I lost the ability to differentiate what is right or what is not? I become paranoid. I don't know what is the best way to LOVE you.

What I only know is, that habit of you is not GOOD! I'm afraid and worried that something bad will happen to you, but you look like not even care about yourself also. The feeling even stronger when I knew that you feel the pain in your chest. I had been quiet for some times when you told me that. Doesn't it obvious that what cause you feel it in that way?

I don't like to talk and complaint too much to you, because I can't control my anger every time I think about it. It is because I LOVE YOU so much~ I always expected that it will be the last time I complaint after I told you all, but seriously I don't know why, I just can't control myself of saying all that!..is like seeing the love one going to kill himself yet I do nothing. However, no matter what I said, how many times I repeated the same SHIT, everything that shows in front of my raw eyes are still the same. Some times, I rather die than seeing you like this, at least the incident can show you that you are not only killing yourself when you doing that, but also the one beside you...

I know it is hard to quit it. I know you tried but still I can see that you have been forced for trying so hard! Some times, I still can feel that you are not willing to do so..and it hurts me real LOT! You tried to reduce it but now what I can see is you are stopping to continue work on it anymore. Who on earth willing to see the love one doing such a bad thing?!! That was so not me if I did not stop you when I know that you're actually doing that. At one point, I scared I talked to much and make you feel annoying..

I don't know whether I should leave you or not, because you might feel release and better if I'm not around. Then, you can do whatever you want to do.

Terrified.

Terrified to love but in real I'm just love you so much! Tell me what is in your mind~ You know, I'm always the best listener on earth who is willing to hear from you at anytime!..and you should know that there are only YOU are able to rescue yourself from the hell...

NEW Puppy

I only have ONE class in the afternoon, but still I woke up in the morning just for the sake of our group assignment! :) Elain, ShirLie and Abby came to my hostel because we had been planning to do our assignment on Accounting today onwards. xD Finally we realized that we are actually running out of TIME! The deadline of summiting the assignment is just around the corner! OMG~ Damn US! muahahahahaha...

Shirlie bought a pack of snack and she can't even finish the food which is so LITTLE, damn freaking 'pity' us that we have to help her to finish such unhealthy food in the early morning! xD Honestly speaking, we can't really find out some USEFUL information about our assignment through the Internet :( At the end, we went to the library in order to find out some information instead of sitting at the same place and do nothing on it! To be frank to everyone, I will never go in to the library if I still can ask for others' help... That's why this is the first time I STEPPED IN to the 'hell' just for the assignment. xD BUT, Library in SEGI UC stores little of books if compare to other libraries and obviously there are also lack of information that we are looking for :( I was so worried that how the hell we gonna complete the assignment!

Shirlie and Abby went to have brunch first since the afternoon class is going to start few minutes later and I'm still praying hard with Elain that we could get at least SOMETHING in this freaking un-awesome library. I sacrifice myself just to step in to this place but at last I get nothing? How can they treat a 'little' girl like this :( I sacrificed a lot kay?!!!! xD Luckily, we found 2 books actually I found them xD

which is useful than other books but not much. =.='' LOL. LOUSY!!!

Since the class was started, so quickly we went to register for the books and rushed into the classroom. Fortunately, the lecturer still willing to show her 'kindy' face to us. FYI, the new chapter of Quantitative Methods, Probability - Decision Tree is sucks! I think all of my course-mates have no problem with the syllabus BUT for the professional of the lecturer... ...SUSPICIOUS to the TOP!!! :(((((

Anyway, I think I have to go in to the library again for the QM's reference book. Argh~ not gonna to deal with it, can? After class, I went back to my hostel straightaway instead of meeting dear because he has to go somewhere else to collect a new puppy! He always likes to spend a lot for all of the unnecessary stuffs, but this time he spent for a puppy. Seriously I'm speechless, cause I LIKE puppy too xD ARGH!!! It is not like very cute but also consider as cute.. LOL^^ which is lame.. I know...That is me :) Dear came to pick me up with his puppy and went to Terry's house to get a box for the puppy first. Guess what?! The puppy pee on the floor! wakakaz....................

~ This picture is not really clear, cause I don't wish to spot her face, she is sleeping.. SHHH~ _

Then, we went to Elain's house and I finally get my new contact lens from FreshKon! Hooray!! The puppy was shitting and pee at everywhere, dear has to clean up everything. Owh~ Pity sial.. Honestly speaking, he is not a responsible owner at all! damn him... xD

~ Mal Aida Atyn Swynne _