After so long, I am back again. I think its just gonna be a short post to express myself for a while.
I just had a phone call with my mum and I cried, but I couldn't get what is the reason of crying. I wanted to cry out loud, but I stop myself after a little while. This is life I guess, you can't cry as loud as you want when you really need to express, you can't do things that you want every time you think of it. I guess the only reason I stop myself from crying, and choose to write out here is because that: LIFE STILL GOES ON, NO MATTER HOW.
Actually I did not cry because of they can't give me what I want or what I desire to have, but I cried because of I got hurt by they are actually still think that I did not consider on them when I want anything. Honestly speaking, I do and I always do. BUT there are always so many conditions that I could not explain and I can't get through it by myself. I NEVER WANT TO BE AN UNFILIAL DAUGHTER AND I WILL NEVER BE ONE!
If I have a choice, I will definitely wont ask for anything, I don't wanna take things for granted too. You think I'm not being understanding, but actually I am helpless, I am lost, I have no where else to express, thats why I turn to you. I am this kind of person, I will only be "troubling" you when I really have no idea how to curb the problem. I don't want to trouble you as well because I LOVE YOU, truly. Please never think that I am that kind of child, being so not considering. That is not me, definitely not.
Anyway, thank you. I just can blame myself not being the "EXTRAORDINARY", that's why I have to give out more and contribute more effort than others, that's why I am motivated to be a better one; AND I WILL DEFINITELY A BETTER PERSON IN THE FUTURE.
