disappointed

Why you gonna keep the key without any words ?!

you are too rude to me

am I too over
to request
driving to school by myself everyday ?!

maybe
you are worrying me
but I'm not a child
please
I need to grow
I need to be more mature in thinking
[may be I'm not yet]
but
I tried hard to improve to you all!

I need to know about SELF-RELIANT!
till when you going to protect me ALWAYS?

maybe
for yours viewpoint
I'm too over to do that
I'm not mature enough
I'm always disobedient to YOU

but
WHEN you will really
hear what I want to tell you
what I tried hard to let you know more about me before you DONE that!

you will just kept telling us
parents or adult
having a hard stress
nobody know you
nobody can work hard as you
nobody!!!!!
but It's not fair to me and even siblings
don't you know that ?!
don't you want to know it ?!
ABSOLUTELY NO!
you wont
because
YOU NOT LIVE IN A FAMILY
we are not come from a group anymore

YOU LIVE IN YOUR OWN WORLD

you are the best listener to yourself
you are one who always RIGHT
you are the one and only one who live in HARDNESS most

ya
maybe
you are right

but
how about us ?!
we don't have stress ?
we are also HUMAN
EVERYONE in the world got feeling
we can think
for sure
EVERYONE got to face their own problem
for sure
they will feel stress
for sure
I will have this feeling too

not to lie you is
I really like the car
but not the old one

I'm not crazy about the new model
I'm not crazy about the smell of the new one
I'm not crazy about what they said the BIG advantages of the car
but I just like it

you kept giving me HOPE
If you are not allowed
please don't buy it and
saying that's for ME!

but so what
what I said
what I felt
what I want
NOBODY know
the most deplorable
is who will really know me
is my buddy, or the one who love me deeply, but he felt that cant help on me anything.

but I'm just simple
I'm happy to having them in my life
why ?!
because they try to know me always
they hear my voice always without saying any word
they give me good comment on YOU
they advise me I'm luck to having this famuly
they help me when i facing some $$ problem
but not same as you
[keep told me you don't know
or complain about you are working for 24 hours
you are busy buddy
you have no time to bother US]
they want me to accept YOU, to prove that I'm a good daughter
but may be
I'M NOT
no one will be the best

even I'm sick
do you know what you told me ?
you will say
>> better behave yourself
>> if your sick getting serious
>> it will just bring a hard JOB for taking me to see doctor

are you annoying about having a daughter like me ?!
is it right you have to say the word like this!

maybe you are caring me
you wanna protect me
you are hard
but your word
ARE KEPT HURTING ME ALWAYS

maybe
all of you will think that
I'm childish enough to request for that
or I'm too over to request for that
or I'm not a filial daughter

but I'm just posting what I wish
what I want
otherwise
nobody will know me
I really scared I will become a loner
I scared the night without any sound of you all
I scared no friend
I'M SCARED
maybe
I'm really too selfish!






actually
I mind!
I mind about you cut off the phone straight
even you have nothing said to me
even I'm so rude to you
but what I thinking is
My family problem
I can share anything with you
but not PROBLEM
even you can help me on that
but not mean that I could accept it
I know you love me
you care me and worry me always
I'm not annoying you kept BLA me
I'm hearing
I just don't know what respond should I give to you
I don't like to promise
if I'm not sure whether I can do it or not
I think you know it one

I think we need some times to cool down each other

I LOVE YOU
LOVE MY FAMILY
LOVE MY FRIENDS


...but aren't them ?!
I don't know
just continue to leave me here and HURT me

The very last PAPER of Trial exam

Woke up at 615am

quite early for me
because I have to prepare
for later
that I will drive to school
[and.. I should tie up my dog first]
..before I move the car out

I woke my dear up at 630am
so pity him have to wake up so early
for the stupid assembly

anyway
I move out my car successfully
and went to fetch SueNing and also Elain
when we came to a T-junction [traffic light]
we saw May at 3 o'clock side
She no need to take exam today
because she was not taking BC
but she still have to fetch her brother

finally
I found a nice place for me to park my car NICELY!

sorry to them
cause we need to walk quite a long way
from outside in to our school
for sure it took SOME times
XD

Exam started at 805am
OMG
what the f**k of those stupid question
how i going to write a good article ?!
[I DON'T KNOW]
absolutely don't know
at last
I chose a CRAZY question
The title was...
[my lovely readers, please hold your breath]
>>> 学校是快乐天堂
School is a happy heaven

-- Oh NO! how can I do that ?!
How I going to describe the HELL [school] 'for me'
'school is the only one of the place which can bring happiness to US'
I wrote this sentence [for sure I'm feeling not well that time^^]
I have no choice :(
Please forgive me XD

>>> 严惩携带手机到校的学生
take serious action on those who bring hand set to school

-- I'm the one who bring hand set along to school
luckily It was just a exam
luckily I'm not the one who suppose to give any suggestion
or even punishment to those who bring hand set to school


well
this topic should stop here SOON
It was too scary
hohoho


school's bell rang!!!
finally I can leave here!

first of all
I fetch SueNing back first
then
I went to clinic with Elain, SyeLi and ZiQ
Its cool!
everyone was looking us with strange

but I have no time to bother about that
after this
I went to fetch ChowTong at City Plaza

by the way
Elain wanna to claim her pic
which taken yesterday

next
i fetch ChowTong back to his house first
he was going to change his cloth
because of he wanna to do gym later

and that was my first time, 2nd time, 3rd time...
to move around the roundabout after
received my license P
Its cool enough
not bad what!
hoho
what a great experience!
I LOVE YOU ALL

after that
I fetch SyeLi went home
I had went to Su-Vern's house
but she was sleeping that time
as her dad told us
XD
[ZiQ disappointed about it]

FINE

I continued my 'long journey'
to go to Jalan Pegawai
for taking ChowTong there
and also to Ampang
for taking ZiQ back home

I'm so tired!
DAMN
after fetching Elain back home
for pick something of tuition
We back to my house immediately

My mum scold me
because my stupid neighbor stole our ASSET again!
what the f**k you!
just some chairs
why you can do that for twice or more!?
I even thought that you wont dare to do it again
after the very first time you became a thief
and get caught by US
WE WERE ALREADY WARNED YOU SERIOUSLY AT THE VERY FIRST TIME!!!

Its just because you are our neighbor
Its just because we trust you wont do it again
Its just because what we demand was so simply
but YOU CANT EVEN MAKE IT!
you are totally failed in your life
you are exactly not human
not animal
but BEAST!
BARBARIAN!
I HATE YOU!!!!!

maybe I was late to home
that's my fault
I'm not supposed to do that
but I cant control the THIEF
I'm not genius
I cant sense about when he going to steal our thing again
so why ?
so why my mum scold me
Its rude to me
too rude
Its not fair enough to me

but luckily I heard some voice from my sis
she console me when i Cried
[because I really hate the feeling that being blame]
luckily at last
my mum apologize to me
luckily my dad had advised me
how I going to move my car out every morning
and what should I do so
[that's mean I can drive my car to school everyday with PERMIT!]

7pm
Jonny came to fetch me and Elain
because
I'm really tired
no strength to drive anymore
moreover
I just took my medicine
It totally make me felt sleepy

I thought I could concentrate and continue going to tuition as usual
but
what I'm thinking was absolutely WRONG
I'm tired
my eyelid were so heavy
They are hard to open
even no strength to blink!

so I skipped the account class
that I never skip it before
although I'm regret later
but It was too late

we went to dinner at 9pm+
chit chatting about movie
That's really work to help me 'woke up from my sweet dream'

because I had drove about 4 hours+ today
and the side effect of the medicine I ate
I less contact with dear
so sorry about that
I'm not to do so intentionally
actually
I miss you so much

miss YOU always

First of all
I would like to congrats YUN
she just passed her JPJ test this morning^^



he was going back to JB last night
for sure
I'm missing him so much
>> every moment

Jonny had promised me that
he will teach me how to reverse my HUGE car out
and also park in to my house
so
I woke up at 5am+
although I'm having flu seriously
but I still reminded myself to wake up on time!

He is really good enough
I kept reversed and drove in the car
for X times

finally I caught the technique of it
XD
although I'm not pro enough yet
but I have confident that
I can do it

about 7am
Jonny was going to school

don't know why
I cant even fall asleep
so
I gave my dear a called
but he didn't accept it
FLU was attacking me every minute!
feeling not well at all

finally i fell asleep

dear had called me
but I cant even realize it
I'm really tired :(

11am+
Elain came to my house
I'm going to fetch her out for some stuff

Luckily I can move the car in and out SAFELY!

hopefully
I shall go to school by Accord
and move it in and out
as well as what I had done today^^

22/09/2009

22/09/2009

woke up in the morning
waiting dear come to my house
he reached around 10am

we online
and share some pics together

12pm+
we drove Accord
to meet Jo them at Alor Star Mall
we did what we planned to do a few days ago
We watched Where Got Ghost ?!
but we were late
sorry to all of them
:(
I think I will going for the movie again
because
I had missed a lot of the part of the movie

after finished the movie
I drove all of them
back to my house first
then
dear fetch us with his Kancil

we back to AlorStar Mall
and went to ebox
~sing sang sing sang~
haha!!!

time flies like an arrow!
about 8pm
is the time for us to go to a gathering party
at Bali-bali Cafe
actually that was my dear's class party
I'm just a outsider XD

the night was so scary
the girl kept watching me
don't know what she want.
haiz!
anyway
I don't care about it
none of my business!
kekez

tonight was the first time I drank Guinness
but it's already mix with Cooler
not bad actually
but I wont try for 2nd time
I prefer Cooler more^^


after the gathering party
we still went to Xantana
dear looks very tired that day
worry him so much.. :(

Jo came to my house after that
She slept with me tonight^^





23/09
Jo was back in the morning
but I'm still live in the dream with my sweet bed
finally
I get my license P today
hurray!
haha
happy...

1pm+
my sis woke me up
and asked me fetch her and mum
went to Spring Leaf to have our lunch
Oh No
I felt stress

20 Sept. 2009

boring holiday

luckily still got my dear accompany me

otherwise

I will become a loner :(



Elain and Me decided to go for a hair cut
BUT
at last
I just go with my dear
because Elain got to go Penang with her family
a bit disappoints me
but it's fine
We had a new cut at Teams

hmm...
..
..
not bad^^

after that
we went to AlorStar Mall again
had our lunch at KFC
all of the staff wore baju melayu yesterday
...Selamat Hary Raya...
LOL!!!

Alor Star
really a damn boring place!
no place can go
argh....
not a good destination for couple to bill and coo
haha

no place to go
no place to go
no place to go

dear received a call from his mum
he should went to his grandma's house
to fetch his mum home first

when we reached
I stay in the car
His mum seem like a little bit get shocked
when she realized I'm hidden in the car
XD
The reason that I should do that
is because
his relatives are inside the house
so....
XD
his mum still kidding with me
I'm shy OMG

we reached his house
I saw his father
this was the first time
They really not look alike
his father quite fierce one
but I saw his smile to us
FINALLY
I can slow down my breath
^^

night
we went to fetch my sis back home
from air port

at first
I may have a great chance
to drive the Accord out to fetch my sis one
but I not yet have my license
although I was passed my JPJ test
:(
so sad

but I will try to drive it on Tuesday or Wednesday
kakaz

~ photo sharing _

~ finally I can tied my hair up! but I still choose to cut it^^ _

~ GHOST!!!! _

~ take pic with my dear's jacket^^ _

~ the end _
Thanks for Supporting My Blog Always

Dear : home sweet home

finally
I can see my dear again..
so happy
really cant wait to see him
I think he will have the same feel with me
XD

17 Sept 2009 ~Thursday_
after I knew that
my JPJ test was passed already
...
..
my dear will coming back tonight
excited
...
..
..


18 Sept 2009 ~Friday_
stay with the long long night
finally The fresh air in the morning
woke me up
My dear told me that
he already at home
so happy to hear that
I LOVE YOU
welcome back^^
miss you co muchiee

He was going to his grandma's house first
don't know why
I got a deep feeling
I felt that the relationship between him and his grandma
was unexplainable
I love the feeling to much
but I cant have it anymore
because....
but
IF once I marry to dear
may be I still have chance to share the love
which belong to his grandma
hahaz

FINALLY
I met dear at night
we decided to go to Jitra Mall
to watch movie
for our first met
>>> G FORCE
but the cinema didn't open
:(
really S.W.T!!!
never expect CINEMA will close before
just because of PUASA
OMG
damn it

we back to Alor Star
and went to AlorStar Mall
hohoho
traffic jam!
so terrible
OMG!!!!!
but today
WE had proved about the advantage of taking KANCIL

haha
dear drove over all the cars
which 'line up' a long long way on the road
and came to a junction
and....
haha
I think you can guess
what we had done

after get the tickets
we go for our 'dinner'
but more like refreshment larrr
The mall was full of Vitamin M
all of them crazy about the sales today
for their new year

The movie started at 1150pm
G Force
It is great!
funny!
nice larrrrr
if you not yet have it
please go for it
too YENG
i love them
they are cute
[I think i should have a hamster be my pet]
but most love my dear
kekez
-CRAZY-

I reached home at about 2am
my mum 'advised' me again
bla bla bla
I no wonder about it
because its common for me..


19 Sept 2009
we did our plan
>>>go for a swam
although dear was late in this morning
but
doesn't matter^^
because there is a heavy traffic jam again!
argh
I'm wondering where the M going to ?!
even C's new year
also didn't jam for 1 hour++
[don't want to scold them alr
later they accuse me
XD]

long time didn't swim already
not really feeling well when swimming
but it back to normal after sometimes^^
had a wonderful morning today
even just stand for 1 hour

maybe will going to swim again tomorrow ?
anyone going to join us ?!
...
welcome to ASRC
XD

PAST PAST PAST

YES!
I PASSED MY JPJ TEST!


I woke up at 730am
Dear gave me a called early in the morning
I was happy to hear his sweet voice
I knew I can do it^^

VonChoong fetched me at about 815am
[Thank you so much XD ]

Ilmu Baru
[If I pass the test
there will be my heaven
Otherwise
There will be HELL!] LOL

60+ people were waiting for JPJ test
My heart beat is getting faster and faster
Luckily dear always be my side
and kept cheer me up
LOVE YOU SO MUCH... Muacks^^

My name had been called
I walked to the counter
The man 'rob' my IC and License L
[so rude!!!]
but I still gave him a sweet smile
hahaz

I really felt so hard to wait!
My number was 24...

well
half an hour more
My turn to test BUKIT
[My WEAK point] so scary...
When I'm walking to the car
I hold tight with my necklace
It gave me a lot of energy and courage!
hohoho
[I miss you so much that time, dear...]

finally I passed the test
include PARKING and TIGA PENJURU
[wondering whether I'm already pass my test ?!]
AMAZING!!
OMG
I PASSED ALREADY!!!!!

next
...
..
waiting for the test of Jalan Raya
...
..
'sup sup water'
haha
The tester slept in the car
scary man!

really hard to describe the feeling
when you taste it
you will know my feeling too^^
Good Luck to everyone...

ACCORD~ I can Afford 'you'..

Elain woke me up in the morning
and told me that
she will came to my house later
after hung up the phone
I realized
there was a message sent by her
She had passed her QTI test
congrats^^
I'm so happy to hear that...

I woke up from my sweet bed quickly
and waited for her

She reached my house
after a moment later

same as usual
we chit-chatted
actually
The purposed she coming here
is to make sushi together
but my house still lack of meat [chicken]

We made a crazy decision
WE planned to drive Accord to Tesco
by the way
she was going to 'cure' her stomach
BUT
I'm really not brave enough to drive it
and
I haven't passed my JPJ test
[I think you know what I mean XD]

LvShan was on the way coming to my house that time
She returned back the vinegar to me
[vinegar - used for sushi one]

We told her about our plan
but she is worried about us
and advised me
don't ever drive my car before get my license
Thanks her anyway^^

...confusing...

At last
I decided to drive
although there were many problems I may face

Elain helped me drove the car out from my house
because I really not brave enough
and I doesn't know that
whether I can do it or not
for sure
she need my help too^^

finally the car had been move to in front of my house successfully
I was so happy and excited

after I cleaned up myself
I took Elain went to the nearest stall
besides
I drove to Tesco too
We bought meat there
and get some food for her dear
I really cant describe and express the feeling of driving a HUGE car
without license!
It was amazing!!!
although It was so conspicuous
such as a 'little' girl driving a HUGE car

although my car get scathed when I reached home
but It doesn't matter
because I have POLISHER!
hoho

we went into house
and rested for a while
...
...
started do SUSHI
..
..
..
..
[I'm quite tired now actually
and felt a bit lazy to complete my blog
so...]

hahaz
lets catch up some pics here!

SORRY TO MY LOVELY BLOGGER^^

~ Japanese' rice _



~ not good in look not mean that not good in taste^^ _

~ finally XD _

~Took on yesterday...

~noob SWT_

Sweet Dream everyone^^

being...Narcissism

I supposed have my AddMaths paper today
BUT
I didn't went to school again
I'm not don't want to go for my exam intentionally this time
It's because MY health was warning me
>>I should sleep earlier everyday
>>I should have my meal on time everyday

Although It's hard for me
since all of that will causing my dear felt unhappy
SO i will try my best to improve myself^^
don't worry, my dear
I LOVE YOU

hmmm
actually today was a BORING day
so.....
I can just sharing some pic to YOU XD
[not 'some' actually]
please forgive me
If those pics let you feel disgusts
LOL

~ observed IT when I'm buying fried rice for my SIS _

~ nonsense _

~ act cute. ISH _
[BUT why cute at all ? hahaz]

~ Enclosed by SUNLIGHT _
[not same as me at all^^]

Countdown

Holiday
>>>5 days
JPJ test
>>>5 days
Dear come back
>>>6 days
Raya
>>>9 days

LOL!!!

damn bored today!
nothing I can do at home..
actually I should have my add maths revision now..
but I'm LAZY :(

Since I have nothing to do
hmm
upload some 'focus'
that i taken long time ago..
[31/07]

~CUP_

photo shooting

I'm glad to hear about
my dear praised me
that
I have a big improve in ENGLISH before
XD

although there were still
have many mistakes
but
I will try my best to improve more^^

Time flies like an arrow
I still left 2 subjects in my trial exam
[physics and add maths]
BUT there have 5 more papers to go
+++++ OIL!!!!!
hahaz

nothing special happen recently
but I had edited some pictures
I would like to share with YOU^^

~ don't scared^^ I'm not ghost _

~ Love YOU without any reason^^ _

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

~ Hope You Have A Nice Day _

Exam...

I woke up at 7am
...in the moment...
I realized that
I was late!
[actually I awoke by Jonny]

I knew that
I just have 15 minutes more
can be prepared
after bath
Dear gave me a caring morning call
I think
he can be guess that
I was slept over time
[ sorry dear,
I'm rude and sound flippant to you
cause I'm rushed with the time ]

however
I was fine within 15 minutes
felt sorry to Jonny
sorry for I'm late today^^
[OMG
his hair has been cut by teacher!
cause he late to school
Sorry guy... :( ]

Luckily I wasn't late to school
although I had no enough time to
review what I had studied yesterday night
but It's still clear in my mind

I took out my calculator
pencil box, a bottle of my water
[forgot to bring my test pad XD]
I borrowed from SyeLi quickly

My class was very dirty
Maths teacher helped us to clean up some places
Her emotion looked so funny
That emotion really cheered me so much^^
I wont be so nervous after saw that

The Exam started
i checked all the printed pages of the exam sheet
...don't know why...
my hand kept shivering
when taking the exam

maybe I'm worrying about
whether I can finished the paper in time or not.
by the way
I done it
I had finished it before half an hour of the time
we should pass up
I cant imagined and expressed the feeling of that moment
so
I quickly find out is there anything wrong of my answer

...finally...
my imbangan duga was balanced out!
I done a BIG big mistake!
hahax
..laughing at my careless work..
everyone was rushing with time
I saw someone cheated
but nothing I can said
because that's not very important for me actually

I hope I can complete my exam
without cheat every time
but sometimes
really felt that I'm helpless
so ....
I will do the same thing as them also^^

The exam was stopped at 10am
everyone was thinking how to
go out from school at the time
[ because school was end at 1.10pm ]
Hate to stay there till afternoon
damn hot

ZiQ SyeLi SuVern.................................
hohoho
we done crazy work!
we walked out from the school hall
till the guard house
till outside....
the guard didn't stop us
[seem weird and lucky]
...worrying about tomorrow - don't know will punish by teacher or not..

We sat SuVern's car go to eat our breakfast
after that
she sent us home 1 by 1
Thank you so much^^

Let me softly take your hand
As we lead each other onwards
It matter not to where we travel
As long as we do so together

Let us journey with each other
To a land we know nothing of
Yet filled with hopes and dreams
To a place that can be our future

Walking our path upon this earth
The goddess of the night above us
Joining our hearts, one to the other
Learning the value of complete love

As we travel to this land of beauty
We may explore each other�s soul
As surely they slowly intertwine
Sure that love will truly blossom