New LOVE Life

Sorry for my late update. Yea, I think so all of you already knew that I had started my new LOVE life recently. It was started on May 30th. Actually I had a crush on him when I was in sem 1... and It is just like a dream, because I never think that he will love me as what I do^^

...and now or every time when I'm recalling back the past and memories that we had been together, spontaneously I will laugh for them. I have never ever expect that I will have this experience before. I'm thankful to him for his appearance in my life.

The first date after we are coupling officially was at Genting! I would like to apologize to all of you here, because I'm not going to describe the date clearly, include all of the dates before today. but I will try to update my blog always after today, for sure also about my love one^^

and..everyone knew that I hate smokers, and now I'm being in a relationship with a guy who almost take smoke as a part of his life. Instead of answer all of the questions from all of my friends, I prefer to prove to you all, and I know it takes time to do so.

The most important thing is - I'm not to be in a relationship with him because of to forget the previous one! I'm really love him.. That's all I can tell. Yea, actually now I'm still doesn't like people who smoke often. I'm not changed, just my point of view for certain thing had changed. BUT one thing, I trust that love can change someone else, time can change someone else. Even though I'm not sure whether I got the power to change him or not, but I will try. Is not because of I does't like he smoke, is because of I love him so much that I don't want him to do something that might hurt his health.. do you agree with me ?

Anyway, that's me. The real me. No matter what, no matter how, you have to accept it IF you still treat me as a friend. but your concern, your comment, I'm still appreciated^^

Everyday = BORED

Quite a long time I didn't update my Blog, finally I have the mood to reduce my guiltiness to all of my readers. xD Actually the most important reason that I'm not update my BLOG recently is because of the boringness of my life! damn bored lar wei~ I always hang out with my house-mates and course-mates, but we really have no idea for what to do and even where to go?! so don't be so jealous when I tell you that I'm just came back from some where, because I have nothing to do ALWAYS!

I woke up at 11am+ today. After that, I started to do houseworks, since our house became more dirtier and dirtier due to our laziness xD Anyway, I still enjoy the works, so don't feel sorry to me, my lovely house-mates^^ Mal and Aida went out to The Curve with Hanafi around 3pm. Guess what?! I'm regretting for not joining them now, but still I'm satisfied with.. --> Finally, I did put some effort on my study! xD

I'm so excited now, because I'm going back to my home town next week! Can't wait to meet my friends^^ and also can't wait to hear some comment of me from them. hope that I can hear something is GOOD for me...

>>sorry, Shan.. I'm not ignoring you, is really I have to back to home town. Hope you guys have a good good night on 3rd June^^

oops! now I realized.. I not yet take my meal today, just rely on my milk shakes! how sad?! BUT it's guiding me to the way of Perfection.. and I'm being patient enough to wait for that moment. The moment that I success and get the result I dreamt it long time ago. I really want to become more prettier and slimmer^^ Good Luck to me...

We were BORN for the NIGHT

As what we planned before the night, we went to the OPERA.^^ Seriously, I never expect that it will comes so fast and I have to attend the DATE when I was sick :( damn! xD They are really crazy body but I do love them so much, so I have to go so... Otherwise, I will kill by all of them.

~ Elvy become my driver that night xD _

~ TQ for my laziness and also sickness, so that I have a great look that night, because AZZY helped me to put up the make up^^ _

~ finally, we reached MOS _

~ 4 of us is still under age, so what we can do is.. wait for the elder one 'settle' this matter xD _

In the end, we went to OPERA... :)

~ Elain was putting her make up, so I wait... _

~ haha.. what a stupid pose ?! _

After dancing like crazy at the dance floor, we just realize : Is the time for us to do more exercise already, our age gain older and older. We danced with our high heels non-stop the whole night, but seriously, our legs pain like hell! xD

~ guess what she looking at ? _

Reach home safely, with my tiredness! still I want to snap many many many pictures! xD

hope that I will always happy like this, although it's hard :(

I LOVE YOU

Sunway Lagoon 1 Day Trip

This trip has been planned by Lynn and me long time ago. Actually both of us also forgot when we plan and who was the planner?! xD Even though there are many problems to make us think of going to cancel the plan, in the end, it still comes to us smoothly and all of us really have a great day. I hope so :) For those who cannot come along with us, don't be sad, the next trip is waiting for us. I think so :(

~before going down to COVA Square to meet Marcus and Edward_

~ enjoying the music in the car xD _

We reached Sunway Lagoon quite early, and the worse thing is, the workers told us Lagoon will open at 11am. Fcuk liao~ so.. We have no choice and wait the gate to open under a hot sun without any cooling system! damn HOT!

~ I think this is the only pic that Marcus willing to look at the Camera :) _

We have a lot of fun there, but the saddest thing is we cant take too much pictures. I think I going to hire a photographer already xD

We went through all the parks and play almost all the rides and games in the Lagoon. Actually I'm quite disappointed, because we didn't take the SHIP and SCISSORS because of some reasons.. and I 'merajuk' quite a while, but sorry, I just want to enjoy the day and do all the things together with 5 of us. No one can be abandoned :) We are lucky, some rides are taking repeated twice for us^^ Seriously, I don't want to go to the haunted room any more. fucking scared larrr!

Although there are some 'unhappiness' happened during the trip, but I still have fun and enjoy my lovely day. and sure, I wont forget it. I will keep it in my mind even though there have no pictures during we having fun with each other. BUT the memories already 'stick' in my mind and also my heart^^

I love all of you so much...

and.. miss you :)

The Last Lecture

07/05/2010 - Friday

Today is the last day for our short sem - Malaysian Studies. The lecturer gave us all the tips, actually is both all the questions and answers itself! damn good wei~ Even the Moral Studies' lecturer also did that also... I'm wondering why? but that's not important anymore, at least we no need to study hard, but memorize 'smart' xD I'm happy because of the end of the sem, I no need to study the freaking subjects anymore, but sad because of the exam next week and I going to separate with all of them :( don't know we still can hang out together as now or not?

After the lecture, we went to The Curve for lunch and movie (IP Man 2). damn nice! I like it^^ Something happend that time, make me feel so SHY! OMG...xD At night, Azzy cooked me and Mal supper! When I helped her to cut the onions using the new knife, I cut my thumb accidently! I was bleeding non-stop that time. damn pain and scared :(

I do miss all of you 'liao'~

:(

给妈妈的信

致 亲爱的妈妈

转眼间，几个月过去了，秀雯没在家的日子，妈妈还好吗？很抱歉，秀雯不经常给家打电话，问候妈妈和爸爸，今年的母亲节也不能陪您度过..更给不了那些有价值的礼物。女儿清楚自己是个怎样的人，秀雯很少，甚至不曾对您说过：“我爱您”或是“我想您”。这是因为秀雯在表达自己爱家人的方面，的确比别人弱了。这样的表现，我承认是女儿错了。不是女儿不爱您了，更不是不想您了，而是我真的不善于表达对您们的爱。而且我觉得，与其经常对您说“我爱你”，倒不如以实际的方式表达。女儿明白，爸爸和妈妈对女儿的呵护莫大于一切，更是我此生都无法回报的。但不会尽我所能：好好读书，安安分分，更重要的是不做让你们担心或伤心的事（因为您们实在做得太多了）。我想这应该是您们最想看到的，对吧？也是唯一可以让您们感到安慰的事。其实，女儿在这里真的很想念您和爸爸。虽然女儿还年轻，但还是懂得分辨是非清白。懂得如何照顾自己，独立的性格，使您们培养的！也许就因为这样，再加上与家人年龄的差距，我实在不懂该如何说“我爱您”。但也却因为如此，大家都称赞女儿很自立，思想比同龄的成熟。这时，我只想告诉他们，这都因为我有那么好的家庭，那么好的父母，对我来说那么特别的家庭背景..其实我无时无刻都为了这些种种感到无限的自豪。这都是您们给我的，女儿很珍惜^^ 但是，因为有着这样的性格和背景，一旦女儿遇上一些问题，都不曾尝试开口对您们说，所以不是伤害了您们的心。秀雯真的不想这样的，秀雯感到很惭愧，更不知如何表达对您们的歉意！爸爸，妈妈，对不起...

爸妈，一定要好好的照顾自己，尤其是健康！...因为您还要等着女儿在长大，有了稳定的工作，那时候不再是我想您们要零钱了^^ （这都是我一直以来藏在内心深处的愿望，它会实现的！）妈妈，要天天开心！因为对我来说，您的笑容是最美的，真的...伤心的时候，可以给秀雯打电话，我会当你最好的听众。不管是好是坏，不管您以前是以什么样的方式教导我，骂我，打我，疼我，照顾我，我从不会忘记！因为那些都是您用真心付出的爱，是您最成功的教导方式，所以不管那时的我有多疼，那时的我有多少的怨言，那时的我哭得多大声，我都会铭记于心，因为现在的秀雯就是从那无知的时侯，被您慢慢地，辛苦地琢成现在的玉..虽然这片玉不是世上最好的，更有不少的缺陷，但是秀雯相信，只要是我和妈妈努力磨成的玉，都是我们心中最好的玉。我希望这片玉会越来越亮，照耀着您，给您光芒，不再给您任何的黑点:)

妈妈，母亲节快乐！我爱您...

秀雯

Atyn BELANJA xD

05/05/10 - Wednesday

hmm.. Let the pictures talk! xD

Atyn's parents want to treat us a meal because of we put so much effort on her birthday party, even though she is not there that time.. so we went to The Curve^^

FRIDAY's

after finished our dinner, Atyn and Aida want to go back to our hostel first. So, Lynn, Azzy and me went to The Sanctuary^^

The SANCTUARY

~ Peach Margarita _

Show Off TIME! xD

The Birthday Party without Birthday GIRL

...Facebook sucks lar wei!!! 'Server Unavailable', this word already pop-out HUNDRED times while I trying to sign in Facebook from yesterday until now! SO I decided to update my blog here, instead of wait for the fucking stupid Facebook to log in for nothing! hmm... In fact, I'm so lazy to update my blog with the TITLE today, but I HAVE NO CHOICE!!! xD...

The party was held on the last Saturday and all of my house-mate were starting the plan 2 weeks before^^ In the end, only 3 guests are coming except for 4 of us. The additional guest was Aida's friend, so there are only 8 people in the party! AWESOME leh?! xD

The birthday girl's name is Atyn, because of her selfishness, she missed the party although Lynn already told her that Lynn is going to London and the party will be the last day for her to meet Lynn. so bad~ How come she still could not keep the appointment? LAST DAY lor!!

As what Azzy said, 'sure ar? she don't want to come?', because we put a lot of hard work on the decoration and the process of the party. BUT she don't even give us a DAMN! :( so, party will keep going on without the birthday girl. Azzy was the party's DJ that night. She cooked Spaghetti for us and did all the food and drinks, the inspiration of the decoration is also came from her mind^^ That's why we have an AWESOME night.

The party started at 8pm, but music already playing from 6pm+. We wait for Azzy to finish cooking and dress up, we took our dinner together. Try to imagine, the combination of food, music, friendship and dancing.... wow! great right?! We started the 'dance floor' more earlier than the plan as we decided. xD After that, the guys played the Twister game, continued with the game 'Truth and Dare' not Truth OR Dare but Truth AND Dare xD End of the party was the movie session - Death Silence...

After the party, we played poker card in the room until~ then chit-chat and making fun in the room until~ hahahahahahaha.... ''not that LATE'' xD 4am+ ONLY!

I will always remember this day with all of you~ Love you all so much^^

~ Twister _

~ Make-up session?! _

~ hmm.. I have no idea what he trying to do? _

~ really look weird with the mask :( _

~ The BEST chef ever xD _

~ Fed up for waiting the food? _

~ The GUYS xD _

~ nice picture will only take by ME _

~ so shock! he can fix the mask!! _

~ The birthday card and guest book _

~ The sign board of the front door^^ _