Swynne: From The VERY Beginning TO An END!

This will be the last post I write about him, I think.

No matter what, I have to let go and MOVE ON! I trust that I can do it, because I got all my sweeties and Hero xD

...and also I hope that all my friends that have any problems in their current life now, never give up. Do remember, no matter how hard is your life now, still have me or other friends and family, will always by your side when you need them or ME^^ 我会陪你走... :)

This post is just want to flash back to the very started point of me and him ( before we are couple as I had started to fall for him ) until the END of the relationship. My own feel like the story line is actually quite nice. LOL and I will just describe all the scenes with lyrics. Enjoy~

I'm still remember when I fell for him at Form 4, that time he already has a girlfriend. We do always chat in MSN or phone. He is a really good guy and never betray his girlfriend even the girl was not that good. our relationship became closer day by day from stranger to friends, from friends to 'sibling', from 'sibling' to the only one that me or him will share secrets of us to.. BUT still, he was too kind to her girlfriend, what I mean is he was very caring, but seem like the girlfriend not really know how to appreciate. Every time he was sad, I'm upset too + a little bit envy :( We used to share songs to each other.. I don't know why, he seems like very into YUI's song, so from there, I used to hear a lot of her song too..

Ima saishuu densha ni notte, Koko ja nai dokoka e yukitai

If you were able to meet you, Ashita ga hajimaru sono mae ni

I fee the distance with you

- Last Train, YUI -

- Tomorrow's Way, YUI -

- Tokyo, YUI -

- Feel My Soul, YUI -

Someday, he saw my blog that wrote about I'm not supposed to fall for him. He came to me and ask about it. But I had told him a lie that the guy I talked about is not him. After a while or 1 day after, he knew all the truth since he already guess that the guy is him at the very first time he read my blog. After all, I will listen to a song to help me sleep faster every night in order to miss him a LOT!

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了

- 说好的幸福呢, 周杰伦 -

and he knew that I was so EMO and always sleep with this kind of song, so he suggest some better one :)

Kiss me out of the bearded barley

Nightly, beside the green, green grass

Swing, swing, swing the spinning step

You wear those shoes and I wear that dress

- Kiss Me (AOL Sessions Acoustic), Sixpence None The Richer -

- Fall For You, Secondhand Serenade -

LOL Yea, I know it's weird. So at the end of the year of 2008, he has a class trip with almost all his classmates and the others are Form 5 students..and he invited me to go for the trip AND his girlfriend is not along! I was like crazy one and don't know how brave am I to go for a senior's trip and I'm the only one Form 4 in the bus. No one know me, I know no one. Just because of LOVE.

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

- Bleeding Love, Leona Lewis -

This is the alarm ringtone of mine that time. I'm was happy to be with him, but hurt and envy to see him so care about his girlfriend. After the trip, we are no longer contact with each other that frequent anymore..and I started to move on... ~long story had happened here (Jan'09-Jun'09)~ until someday around end of the July of 2009. He said he was about to go to Johor for his study and he has told me that he already fall for me for a long time, actually. But that time I already having a relationship with someone else. The struggles between him and the guy was suffering. Eventually, he was the one I had CHOOSE.

So yea, we are in love with each other. The story line is keep on moving smoothly. We do enjoy the way we loved each other even though after this we will be far apart. That time, me and him do trust that distance and long term relationship wouldn't affect us that much. We had created a lot of stories of US, keep on flashing back the memories of us and also created many love quotes and some short-form of our secrets. is all about us... When I was down, he will sing... ...

So baby don't worry, you're my only

You won't be lonely

Even if the sky is falling down

You'll be my only, no need to worry

Baby are you down down down down down

- Down (Candle Light Remix), Jay Sean -

Until my college life at PJ started. Problems keep on finding us.. At first, was like I'm scared about he was too cared about me. So, I need some times to take a rest, I broke up with him... AND I met a new guy here. I went to in a relationship again. For him, I know it was hurt! and I can only say is...

Baby, 想对你说声对不起

用错的方式去爱你

因为我太在意

- Baby对不起, 李玟 -

It is my fault to let him go even I had already think about the problems alone few weeks before I decided to end up this relationship. I loved him in a wrong way, let him go in a wrong way, making all the troubles became more trouble in a wrong way. and also He has also tried to fall in a relationship with others in this time. At the end, he forgone it in order to get me back. He do asked me to choose between him and the guy many times, but I never give him an answer, maybe just because of like this, he has made his own suspicion that I choose the other guy already. Eventually he fall for a new girl once again and he really do.

现在的你, 那么遥不可及

让我看清了我们之间的距离

（ I saw this on my friend's wall in Facebook, you used to said that our distance is far, but our heart wont, AND now I really can feel how far is us, because even the heart is already broken )

Stromin my pain with his fingers

Singing my life with his words

Killing me softly with his song x2

Telling my whole life with his words

Killing me softly with his song

- Killing Me Softly, Lauryn Hill -

Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling

And every time we kiss, I swear I can fly

Can't you feel my heart beat fast

I want this to last

Need you by my side

- Everytime We Touch (Candle Light Mix), Cascada -