Malaysian Studies

I attended a lecture that was started at 12.15pm today. This lecture was going to take us to the Malaysian Studies which is totally same as the 'Sejarah' we had studied in Secondary school. The only difference is the language we used to it. I'm really hate this subject in my previous life, but now I have a different thinking, I know I have to change my mind. Otherwise, I wont even work for it, and also not to do well in the coming assignments and exam. The lecturer gave us 2 assignments today, such as 1 is the individual assignment, and the other 1 is to do in a group! Our group have 6 peoples included me^^ I'm a leader of the group, I know I don't have the ability to become a leader, but I will try to improve myself and make sure all of my members are in cooperation and have a good marks as their results. The girls in my group are pretty, I'm jealous :( Anyway, I hope they wont mind have such a bad leaders. So, I have to stop here. Have a nice day^^

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JUNE 1979

Mama told me, "There's an owner for every cloth in the store." Well, I'm ready to be bought. I've been sitting here with the same pretty pattern on my face for a long time and I'm beginning to fade, ya know? So my question is this, is anyone interested in a piece of fabric that's collected so much dust?

...to be continue

The First Lecture

I was staying in the hostel 3 days already, I know all my house-mates well. I feel scared and wondering how I'm going to communicate with all of them, because I'm not so fluent in English. Luckily, all of them are nice and friendly. Well, today was my first lecture in Segi University College. I woke up at around 11am and attended the class at 12.30pm... The lecturer is an Indian, he didn't touch on any topics about the Moral Studies, but just told us about his life^^ I thought I would have a assignment or task work to do on the first day, but not at all?! Anyway, I wish I will improve myself as fast as possible, to adapt and adopt myself as fast as I can, and solves all the problems that I will face it later as well as I wish^^

After the lecture, I had my lunch with all of my house-mates... It's great right? How lucky am I to get the opportunity to know them as well? hmm.. I will appreciate it xD I hope to meet and know more new friends after this, because I think this is the best way for me to enjoy my college life. I know it wont comes again if I really miss the chance!

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JANUARY 1978

I'm lonely, so lonely I don't have to peel an onion to cry. So lonely that frustration has become my first name. So lonely that depression is my middle name... and I'm gonna wallow in my desperation because I'm lonely... and that's as good an excuse as any for sitting around and feeling sorry for the way my life is going.

...to be continue

College Life Begin

The time is passing like a comet, it's too fast until I can't catch it properly. Sometimes, I'm lost! I don't have enough time to plan my work, but just keep dreaming about it. useless! Anyway, I hope I will be fine and adapt myself in the strange place with all of the unfamiliar faces as fast as possible. The hostel I going to stay is very comfort, but the living room and the kitchen are more bigger than the rooms! Moreover, each room have to share with 2 tenants. so bad! Plus, the rental is expensive!!!!! Oh dear, I want a master room badly, but my mum said she has no enough money to afford the huge amount. I think I have to considerate my mum more and appreciate what I got now :) I will going to continue my studies in Segi University College at Kota Damansara. I went to the college before, It was huge and nice like a palace except the 'onion style'. I know you get what I mean... xD


Recently, I got in a book named 'If Men Are Like Buses, Then How Do I Catch One?' by Michelle Mckinney Hammond. I wish I could do a post in blogger once I read it^^

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PART ONE - THE RIGHT PLACE

ONE

Get Out of

the Street

EXCERPTS FROM MY JOURNEY

SEPTEMBER 1977
I need a man, want a man, dream a man, eat a man, drink a man, want a man so bad I can taste the fulfillment of love, like cravings for a rich dessert, it haunts me even after I've had a whole meal. I can't explain it, I just want it.... I just really want a man.

...to be continue

My BIG day! xD ~SPM result released!!

going to update 

readers

be patient  xD

You Will EVER Be My Good Brother

~ That natural light without hesitation expressing a short brief and fragile human life _

Suddenly I remember, I shot this photo in the midnight of 02/03/2010, there was a huge blackout, so I lighted a candle, I discovered the candle light was very beautiful, I took it down at the moment. I have never expected would hear your bad news the next day. I have no chance to apologize to you for not keep in touch with you such a long time. Now, I can only take this photo to commemorate you, to express my thoughts to you...

Goodbye, Sky Ng [Ng Choon Cheat]

Everyone do miss you   T_T

To : Ng Choon Cheat

~ What A Cute and handsome guy?! He's really a good man _

~ I felt he is strong, but who will clear his moments of weakness? _

~ Why should we take away his life so early? He did not fault! _

In the afternoon, I received a message from SisJoAnn : "SiewWen, Cheat had passed away..."... I'm really get shocked while knowing such a bad news! The handset which holding in my hand almost fall. I can't accept this breaking news! So I called her immediately! don't know why, I cried seriously... can't control myself anymore. She had told me that he was suffering from bone cancer a few months ago. During the period, he tried to surgery, but in the end the cancel cells is still proliferate. Please! He was just 21 years old!! SisJoAnn tried to comfort me and helped me how to contact his friend to let me pray my last respect for him. After hung up the phone, the past kept flashing back in my mind...

My mind now was totally empty now. I can't even believe to this badly news. Suddenly, I felt so sorry to him, how can I do not ask about him at all such a long time?! How can I do that? ya, I'm blaming myself! I'm right to blame myself!!!　I'm really bad!! I was too late to apologize anymore. I didn't have such qualification to being forgive by him. I knew... I have nothing can say already, every words in my heart had blocked, it choose to runny eyes non-stop. I think this is the best way for me to relieve my hurt hidden deeply in my heart! By the way, I just hope that I can pay my respect for him at the end of his life. May God Bless Him

At night, I went to his house to pay my last respect for him with SyeLi. Although I'm scared to see those unfamiliar faces, but I feel calm when I saw his portrait there. I got so many things to tell him, I wish he can forgive me such a stupid failure, but when I kneel to his body, I'm down and nervous, I have don't know what to say first and next. Anyway, I will never know the answer anymore. How sad am I?!

When I reached home, I realized that no one will reply me anymore if I sending some funny message or telling him I'm bored or upset. Why?! I'm really can't accept the truth at all!

My tears was dried, but my friends still feel my sadness even I'm smiling to them, now I just know how good are you. You had made my cry! What you do for me, I'm appreciated, but too late for reciprocation. :(

Gor, I do miss you...

really miss you.....

Rest In Peace

*cry