The Days Without Work

Maybe it's because of the plain-accordant-working-routine last time, I'm already used to wake up in the morning. Oops! I used to wake up in the afternoon when I was a spoil kid xD I walked out from the room and looked out from the windows, I doubt, so I really know where I am? I'm so far away from my parents and my lovely home :( I was looking to the labors who are working hard for the construction, and all the houses, apartments, buildings, shop-lots...Everyone is working for MONEY. I'm right here looking to all of them, and I feel LOST! Apparently, my mind will be keep on thinking and I know that I need to find a way out from here, from myself, for my own. I probably know that what should I do the next, but still it's so blur, same to my future too. I don't know why, this busy-city-view makes me think a lot!! =.=''

What should I do for the 4-months-holiday? What should I do more once my new semester starts? Where am I going next? How great can I be after this as I wish to?

Oh! Why am I so EMO?...maybe it's just because of I have learnt a GREAT lesson in my life from a random bastard. The only thing I know is, I MUST stay STRONG and keep my mind FRESH at every moment, because every random people who pass through or stick in my life with me are my teachers, they give me lessons! Each of them gives me different, challenging, and unpredictable lessons to me. They are all the "encouragement" in my life, they make me keep improving, upgrading, become more mature and at last, achieve SUCCESS in my life!..no matter they have good or bad attitudes, no matter they are my friends or enemies...

Okay~ stop this shit~

I have no idea why am I so EMO in the early morning =.='' I just feel so lifeless as I think I should walk out from this door and go for more jobs to kill the time...

I did not regret of my words and decisions because I clearly know that there are no way for me to regret for the past, it's just so useless, BUT I learn and I EARNED! I know for sure there is ONE DAY I will gain from what I have loss today, because I will never ever redo this mistake anymore.

Anyway, I have a gift to Marcus yesterday, I will talk about it...maybe after 2 weeks? muahahaha... Stay tuned for the post :)

Hey bastard, why don't you just tell them you stopped me for going to work instead of giving me break to concentrate on my studies? What a bullshit! AND now a 19-years-old girl (ME) is laughing at you, a 30+ poor man! Anyway, thanks for giving me this golden chance to praise you here since you like to backstab everyone around you so much without their knowing even you seem treat them so good in day time. I seriously pity all of them! BUT the one I pity the most is my sister :(

I don't have the right to do any comments but this is her choice, no matter what, she has to deal with the aftermath. I have already voiced out what is the problems underneath, the DIFFERENTIATING FACTOR is yourself, is in your hand. No one can helps you~ Good Luck!

Luckily I still have my family, lover and friends :)

I'm not afraid of falling down, because they will be always by my side and guiding or giving me ways of standing up again! ❤