Simple Outing

hmm.. Actually today dear and me will going to Bukit Tinggi, but he have to accompany his dad go to Genting for a concert at night, so we had changed the plan to next week^^ Readers, be patient k? I woke up at 11am+ and received dear's message that asking me to go out for a short date.

Around 1.30pm, we reached Giza Mall. The actual plan was going to Starbucks @ Curve, but the way to uptown was having traffic jam, so.... We walked around in the mall with our lappie. damn heavy wei~ pity my shoulder :( and we both was like stuck in the mall, kept walking around and don't know where to stop to have our lunch xD stupid right?! Dear told me actually the mall was constructed by his father, I'm shocked when I heard that..and I knew actually he also shocked when he knew that from his sister. LOL...

Guess what?! In the end, we didn't have our lunch in the mall, but somewhere beside the mall - Station 1 Cafe xD don't know why, we ordered the same dish without asking each other :) so nice~ best-nya~ Suddenly, my eldest sister gave me a called! She asked me to inform my house-mate, Mal to open the door for her, because she was already outside my hostel. I was damn nervous because Mal doesn't picked up my call and she is the only one who stay in the house that time. After a few minutes, my sister can't stand for it any more, then she said will meet me at Station 1 cafe to pass me the Herbalife's product.

She gave me 2 BIG packs of products! and..both my sisters and my eldest sister's boy friend was damn fucking curious about who am I dating with~ Their act and reaction made me laugh like hell.. In that moment, I feel like I'm more elder than them, because they was searching and guessing who is actually the guy I'm dating with. xD but Sisters, don't worry k? I will take care myself.. No matter what, I wont do stupid things and let you all worry about me like before any more. I have my own thinking now and still I know family is the most important part with me...

After that, I spotted Elain's blog. It was talking about the fought between her boy friend, VonChoong and her. They fought two times already and just because of the 'clubbing' issues. I know Elain's feeling, because I having to same issue with her now actually, but then is also got some difference between me and her. Anyway, I felt that it is not worth to fight with each other because of those problems. So, I have a short chatting with Elain. As a friend, I can just giving some suggestion, encouragement and consolation. There is nothing other than that, because that is their problems, as a couple, they have their own right to choose whether they want to continue the fight? or both be patient and tolerate with each other, and hold hand in hand to solve the problems they had been into. and I think, this is the only way to maintain and further a long-term and good condition of a relationship!

For me, I can't go to club is because of my dear still got some issues in that with his previous girl friends. and Girls, don't be misunderstand k? my reason to not go to the club with you all before is all the truth, but to be frank to you, got a little part is also because of him. This not mean that I wont go to have fun with you all any more, but please be patient k? All I need is time.. Wait for me, just have fun without me first^^ We still can hang out to other places together what, right? I still love and do care about you all very much, okay? :)

hmm.. I feel so sorry to him, because he has to help me carry the products to the car. I know it is very heavy..and also didn't accompany him much, because I was busy talking with Elain. Sorry, dear. Thanks for your understanding.

After that, dear sent me home.. and I have a chat with Mal...

Is all about the house-mates' attitudes and issues around this period. BUT the most important thing that I told her is about my thinking through the past issues. and I think now is the best timing to let me stress out all of them since I never tell anyone why I choose him but not Him.

I keep to be quiet and patient to all questions and the 'blaming' from others even some of my friends. I think you all know that I'm more to independent type of person.. I do like and don't mind that my boy friend is always care about me, but for me, what he gave is too much. I hope you know everyone is different, so the demand is different. I do told you about this before, and I think you still remember you promised me after that every time. In return, I got the same thing in the end. AND from time to time, when you cry or I see the sadness on your face just because of the small issue, I feel very annoyed! You are no longer the man I know before, I feel so unsecured and seem the one who protecting me not you, is me my own. Because I found that you are so weak when to face those problems, no more wide shoulders for me to lie down. From that, I have to become more independent! and in that way, you become more weaker and weaker from my point of view. You let me feel that you didn't keep your promise, and I think I no need to keep any promise with you any more.

so that I said : I need a MAN to led to in my life, rather than I'm always the Queen of the world. Every time, I wait for your change, I waited for you.. but who knows?! Everyone is just know how to judge the book by its cover. Everyone is just know you are the one who get hurt, I'm the one who enjoy the happiness with my new boy friend. Do you think I'm happy to hear all about that every day? Do you think I wont be stress for those 'blaming' part? Everyone have to get a life, and I choose to be firm and tough! I don't want to live in the past any more, I want to move on! I reconsidered and reconsidered from time to time within 1 month! In the end, I can't get any result of waiting for you to change, so I know is the time I make a decision, and I have to changed first! At one point, you have to be stronger, and this is the best time for you gain it from the HURT! I hope you can do it, as a friend, this is the last thing I can do for you. It may hurt, but I hope you really can learn something and know what is the point I do that. yea, we are no longer a couple and also never a couple any more. BUT still I hope I'm your friend, a sincere friend, to tell you all the UGLY truth all the time, but not led you to a weaker part as always console you as a child. Always remember, "The only way to make you Stronger is GET HURT", "It's a Nightmare to live in the PAST, why not to make it become a Sweet Dream as continue move on and take them as a memory for you? and 'welcome' the better FUTURE life". because Its for you from me as a friend. I do still care about you so that I don't want you to suffer to stuck in the past, no matter what, still life have to go on and you yourself have to move on!

I love whoever do take care of me before, include also your mum and your grandma. Don't let them worry about you. Seriously, I don't care how rude people say me, I don't care how angry they stare at me. BUT what I care is the one do care me before. Sometimes, still I will miss them, the way they treat me, I will never forget. because of their sincerity, I'm touched! I'm also human. No one will forget the past, include you, include me, include all of the people around the world. If they forget about that, they are lying themselves. But what should we do is, take it as a memory, and MOVE ON!! Me myself also wont request any of my boy friend to forget the past, because it's impossible, we wont forget those best thing we did with our lovers before. Everything we did is to create the good memory for our future, maybe one day when we recall them back, the sweet smiles are still on our lips.

I never break up with you because of him. To be frank with you, the issues came first before I started to fall for him. I'm here to stress out is because I saw your status, you seem like going to move on already, and I hope you really will do so. As a friend, I will always support you as before we couple. Friendship never end.

so sorry If I said anything wrong or you guys are not agree with me. but then I'm just saying what is actually deep in my heart^^ Have a Nice day! wow~ don't think before I can write such a long article. *BIG CLAP