disappointed

Why you gonna keep the key without any words ?!

you are too rude to me

am I too over
to request
driving to school by myself everyday ?!

maybe
you are worrying me
but I'm not a child
please
I need to grow
I need to be more mature in thinking
[may be I'm not yet]
but
I tried hard to improve to you all!

I need to know about SELF-RELIANT!
till when you going to protect me ALWAYS?

maybe
for yours viewpoint
I'm too over to do that
I'm not mature enough
I'm always disobedient to YOU

but
WHEN you will really
hear what I want to tell you
what I tried hard to let you know more about me before you DONE that!

you will just kept telling us
parents or adult
having a hard stress
nobody know you
nobody can work hard as you
nobody!!!!!
but It's not fair to me and even siblings
don't you know that ?!
don't you want to know it ?!
ABSOLUTELY NO!
you wont
because
YOU NOT LIVE IN A FAMILY
we are not come from a group anymore

YOU LIVE IN YOUR OWN WORLD

you are the best listener to yourself
you are one who always RIGHT
you are the one and only one who live in HARDNESS most

ya
maybe
you are right

but
how about us ?!
we don't have stress ?
we are also HUMAN
EVERYONE in the world got feeling
we can think
for sure
EVERYONE got to face their own problem
for sure
they will feel stress
for sure
I will have this feeling too

not to lie you is
I really like the car
but not the old one

I'm not crazy about the new model
I'm not crazy about the smell of the new one
I'm not crazy about what they said the BIG advantages of the car
but I just like it

you kept giving me HOPE
If you are not allowed
please don't buy it and
saying that's for ME!

but so what
what I said
what I felt
what I want
NOBODY know
the most deplorable
is who will really know me
is my buddy, or the one who love me deeply, but he felt that cant help on me anything.

but I'm just simple
I'm happy to having them in my life
why ?!
because they try to know me always
they hear my voice always without saying any word
they give me good comment on YOU
they advise me I'm luck to having this famuly
they help me when i facing some $$ problem
but not same as you
[keep told me you don't know
or complain about you are working for 24 hours
you are busy buddy
you have no time to bother US]
they want me to accept YOU, to prove that I'm a good daughter
but may be
I'M NOT
no one will be the best

even I'm sick
do you know what you told me ?
you will say
>> better behave yourself
>> if your sick getting serious
>> it will just bring a hard JOB for taking me to see doctor

are you annoying about having a daughter like me ?!
is it right you have to say the word like this!

maybe you are caring me
you wanna protect me
you are hard
but your word
ARE KEPT HURTING ME ALWAYS

maybe
all of you will think that
I'm childish enough to request for that
or I'm too over to request for that
or I'm not a filial daughter

but I'm just posting what I wish
what I want
otherwise
nobody will know me
I really scared I will become a loner
I scared the night without any sound of you all
I scared no friend
I'M SCARED
maybe
I'm really too selfish!






actually
I mind!
I mind about you cut off the phone straight
even you have nothing said to me
even I'm so rude to you
but what I thinking is
My family problem
I can share anything with you
but not PROBLEM
even you can help me on that
but not mean that I could accept it
I know you love me
you care me and worry me always
I'm not annoying you kept BLA me
I'm hearing
I just don't know what respond should I give to you
I don't like to promise
if I'm not sure whether I can do it or not
I think you know it one

I think we need some times to cool down each other

I LOVE YOU
LOVE MY FAMILY
LOVE MY FRIENDS


...but aren't them ?!
I don't know
just continue to leave me here and HURT me