Haiz... I'm Sad!!

Today ELAIN go Penang already..
So just me alone go swimming..
But luckily ChoonJia have go to swim too...
So i wont too lonely..
hehez^^

the swimming coach have so many people to teach..
So i just swim myself!!
I become more dark already..
OMG!!
Finally is my turn to let teacher TEACH..
but he take me go 7ft. of the swimming pool...
wow! It's a great experience 4 me!!
kekez^^
the height of the swimming pool..
is actually 2 TIMES of me!!
so scared lor...
but actually not that hard to swim at 7ft. as i imagine before!!...

After reached my DREAM home..
i'm very hungry that time..
So i straight go to the kitchen,
and find my mum for taking something to eat!!
kekez^^
BUT i'm so disappointed..
although have food to eat..
but the first thing asked by my mum..
was not whether i eat already or I hungry or not..
IS calling me took those HEAVY GOODS!

when I going out,
my sister call me help her do some works again!!
I just ask what her should I do first..?
and telling her MUM want me to took d GOODS first..
but she staring on me..
and say : "up to you lar!"
OMG..!
Did i do wrong ?!
I already so TIRED when coming back..
Why my family still treat me like that ?!!
that time,
i have doing nothing..
also not helping anyone..
actually I already not comfort when I reach home..
So i choose to take a rest on my BED!!

When I wake up..
the time already point to 5pm+..
So long time I had slept!!
while walking out from my room..
I saw my mum taking the goods..
so I just help her to arrange all the things..
That are so HEAVY..
the most lightest goods are 10kg+..
MOST HEAVY is 36kg lehz..
OMG...^^
I think I just heavy than d goods 10kg!!
tired.....

After all the house work were DONe..
My sister decided to go to eat our dinner outside..
SIster drive me and my mum go Riverbank 4 our lunch!!
I'm so hungry!!
so...
hehez^^

When we reached home..
already 11pm+
But I have to help my mum taking the goods for tomorrow!
so I cant sleep yet!!
But my sister done the first thing when reached home is..
calling her Boy Friend..
I'm so angry and disappointed!!
haizzz...
I think that I'm just like a maid in this family..
many things happen before..
such Like my sister decided that..
she swept the floor..
and after this i help to mop it...
but finally,
what she said ?
just telling me that she's tired..
and call me help her do all the work!!
this not the 1st, 2nd or 3rd time..
too OVER already!!
I'm also HUMAN..
please..
don't do that to me!!
It's so hurt!!!!!

After I taking all d Goods..
I'm walk to my room for taking my towels..
prepared to go to bath!!
My sister finding her contact len's solution..
and it's just put on the table i our room..
I already very tired and sleepy..
Can't you walk in and take ?!
Juz a few steps..
also lazy to walk in ?
me already walk so many steps!!
and helping you and mum take all the goods..
what you want some more ?

I'm agree that I say those bad words to you..
is my FAULT!!
but don't you think of my sadness ?!
I'm very TIRED!!!!!
anything about me..
My family not even know me..
understand me..
But just my friend will caring me for the right way!!
sometimes..
I know you all are caring me..
but the other time..
how you all treat me ?!
I already trying my best to change myself..
Can't you don't so selfish?
is it so hard to change a bit ?
about your attitude ??

Besides this..
I also sad about my k brother..
He always sad about his girl friend..
but i think he really too love his girl friend already!!
I can't give him any comment on that..
because i scared will let him more SAD and disappointed...
I'm girl..
sometimes..
i'm very understand what are girls thinking...
even what will do next..
but I choose to silence..
choose to accompany him just when he need me!!
I don't want anything happen that I not wish too..
I hope that SHE will appreciate my brother..
and gorgor..
"don't always blame yourself..
sometimes, when you're blaming yourself,
but actually not your fault that time..
you're giving yourself too much pressure!!
A good boy friend is just very simple..
just love her truly..
and you did IT.. Don't worry!! ok?"